200 pounds beauty

this movie is fantastic!
so do watch it when you are free, makes you feel good

plus, the soundtrack is fabulous too : )

hm.. just wanna say to rg debate esp. hongchuan and shuaige.

i am really sorry to hear that.
but u have done your best and i am sure you all gained sth from this experience : )
so cheer up.

beautiful girl o. a beautiful girl

~

关于刚才一篇
不用像太多
脑袋不清楚

好现在我什么都不要去想
突然觉得自己因该去做更好的事情

shuaige 又会说我在emo le

放心。
emo 完毕

bamboo

yeah i passed 2. 4km! and improve by 1 minute! it may seem to be very little but i am happy with my improvement! : )

was walking with zijun down to the kitchen when we passed by the career guidance room and i saw sth on bamboo and it caught my eyes coz my nickname is bamboo in pri. skl coz i got a zhu in my name.

and here is the gist of it

when a farmer started to plant the seed, water it and shower it with love and care, in the 1st year, the bamboo has not grown at all

the 2nd year, the farmer started to do the same thing and shower care on the bamoo but the bamboo did not even sprout and grow

same of the 3rd year

4th year

5th year

BUT till the 6th year, the farmer showered the same care and concern on the bamboo and this time the bamboo started to grow and it shoots up to 6 feets in 4 weeks!!

in our lives, we do encounter cases when we have worked hard and acheive nothing at all.
when this happens, some of us give up but growth will only go to those people who persevered to put in the same effot and hard work into what they do.

and when they grow, watch out man, it is going to be a big growth!

i read this and i felt how true it is. many of us used to be so hardworking in pri.skl and that is how we got into rgs but look at what happened now?
sec 1, bad score couldn't adjust yet. sec2 bad score.
sec 3 and 4 give up on hard work, coz we firmly believe that hardwork does not equal to results.

how wrong we were .
and i am glad to read this now. when i can still put in my effort to do the things i want to do.

bamboo, capricorn, and me!
we are all interlinked and what are the traits of all 3?
刘咏竹=竹子= 摩竭座

and what's more, i felt it even more strongly when i finished my test today.
2.4km.
i have run continously for 3 rounds with quite a good speed! and i am proud of that.
but after the 3rd round, i started to think, i am so tired, come on, i have already run 3 rounds, it is enough i can start to jog for a while now.
no matter how hard to keep myself from slowing down, i eventually did.

u c. my problem is that i give a very short goal for myself and after i just put in some effort and i thought t.t that is enough, anyway i have already put in so much.
however, i have yet to finish the race and yet to commit myself fully.

perseverance, that is what i lack.

like a bamboo, i am the type that won't happen to acheive sth by luck or w/o putting in effort
but i refused to put in any effort.

咏竹！
我终于知道为什么算命先生会给我这个名字。
好好的名字。真的 :）

perseverance, everybody knows how to do well, but it is just a matter of whether they want to follow the rules or not.

help me to monitor myself

to friends,
if i became fussy and winy and disrespectful
do tell me gently, yongzhu, you are not yourself

if i became too obsessed with my hair,
do tell me gently, yongzhu, beauty goes to those who doesn't care how they look as they work seriously and care about more important things

if i became too uncaring
do shout at me, and say,
yongzhu,
what the hell are u doing?

to my dear juniors and batchmates (who may not even get to c this at all)

if i became too domineering
do tell me gently

if i became too arrogant
do tell me gently

if i give up half way
beat me up gently

if i care too much about how others look at me,
tell me, you are weak

if i am unhappy or depressed over things that i shouldn't be
tell me straight away, troubles are not there if you don't keep it there in your heart

to all the people who knew me and and crossed path in my never ending journey

nth.
but thanks for getting to noe you all

to The man i loved most - my dear father ~ yongzhu
真的不知道该对你说什么？
从小到大，你都这么关心我，照顾我，不肯放心让亲戚照顾我，宁愿自己来
真的好谢谢你

你本来是很好的学历，
却因为来到这边而放弃了
宁愿当一个做空调的

可是我好爱好爱，真的好爱我的爸爸。
老爸教会了我什么是努力，什么是执著，什么是关爱

你还记得那天我的心情好差，因为我觉得不管做什么都是那么的无能
我进去你和老妈的房间，
轻轻跟你说老爸。。。我们聊聊吧。
你轻轻地抚摸我的头，用慈爱的语气说：
“我的小女孩已经长大了。
你要勇敢，要坚强，要乐观．　知道吗？你已经长大了”

真的，当时我突然想到老爸在我的小时候对我种种的好
回家给我说要变戏法，然后从口袋拿出我难得一见的泡泡糖
带回一个收音机，跟我讲，你想不相信这个能录下你的声音？
我说不信，结果真的可以。还记得当时我多么的好奇。
老爸带我游山玩水，带我出去玩。
记得第一次去ｅｓｃａｐｅ　ｔｈｅｍｅ　ｐａｒｋ，　门票很贵，
可是他却不管老妈的反对坚决带我去。结果我们两个人玩了一整天
谢谢你，老爸，真的真的　非常非常谢谢你。
小时候，我不想做练习题，他就问我，我一生气，也跟他反抗，
我哭了，生气地哭。

可是老爸却向我先道歉。我哭着问他，为什么道歉？
他说：“因为你是我的女儿阿．＂

我哭了。
感动得哭了。

爸爸。你现在还没有回家。一定还在位某某人家里修空调，洗冷气
你辛苦了。

所以，老爸，请原谅我有时的无礼，有时的懒惰

没有尽力去做我的事情
没有利用我的环境去做我该做的
真的好对不起
请你原谅我，好吗？

到底是什么让一个爸爸这么疼自己的女儿呢？
父爱吧。
无怨的付出。
有什么比这个更伟大的吗？

所以，对不起，这个世上最伟大的人不是爱因斯坦，不是老虎五兹
而是我的爸爸。
虽然很自私，不过请原谅我。
我不会去羡慕其他人所拥有的，
不会去那么容易生气，

我的爸爸真的好伟大。
真的好令人骄傲。

最后，

再说一次，

谢谢你爸爸。。。

好久没来了

好久没有上来这个地方了。
真的好久好久。

不知道这个地方变了没有，
人们是不是变了？
花草是不是变了？
房子是不是变了？
树木是不是变了?
最重要的，你的心是不是变了？

以前我们的海誓山盟，
以前我们所发誓的美好，
是不是也因为时间的磨练消失得无影无踪？
是不是呢？你快点跟我说...

"不是的。我并没有抛弃你”

“那究竟是谁？难道是我吗？”

“当然是你。我没有放弃你，可你却放弃了你自己。对不起，我不需要你这种的自弃，
不需要你的种种，因为你实在是太太太懦弱了。太软弱了。外表显得那么坚强不可一世，仿佛什么事情都不能把你销毁，其实，你的内心却太懦弱了！！！
我鄙视你“

我的脑袋翁一下失去了知觉，
然后被一身冷的刺到骨头里的感觉所惊醒

为什么？
为什么？
小时候的我那么的努力，得来的也是我的回报
为什么现在的我不管如何努力，也都得不到？

我不累！ 我不累！
可是我好像睡觉啊

CHANGE OF EMAIL ADD

I changed my email add to

yongzhu.liu@gmail.com

so do email anything there!!!!!!

zhuuuu

loads

today is the final day and the most important day of our sec 4 career as a co member. syf! yeah babes.
and after days of hard work and days and days of practices, we finally went inside the theatre and sat there, and played just 2 songs! which is about 12mins.
and for that mere 12 mins, we hav prac. at least 50 hours (or even more!)
and for that mere 12 mins, we must do our best and not to be nervous and show what we really can do ! and that is torturous.

i got nervous! really got nervous and could feel my whole body shaking (*eeeee though i tried to manage it!) and when i picked up my dizi and blowed the solo part !the 1st note is disappointing and i felt so horrible after that.
others told me that it is not my usual standard but still quite nice, and some said i played the best solo of all for the whole day (thxs loads and many kisses to you all : ) ]
then somehow i cried after that coz i felt all the hard work i put in did not end up in me playing at my best!and i tot i screwed the whole song up.
(but luckily everybody said i did okay~ thxs dudes }

lingyan was telling me about if you get 10 points while you are practising, you can only get 7 on the stage coz there are sure to be errors!

after we got our results, which is GOLD (with no honours), most of us are feeling disappointed and depressed over it == why didn't we get honours??

while, i am disappointed too but .... look at the other neighbourhood schools who cheered and cried with joy over getting a gold and yet look at us who mourn over the same gold makes me feel bad~... it is really hard to describe that.

aim high is good as you are ambitious and want to acheive more and thus will put in your best effort to work towards the goal.

"success and failure are not the key things in life. but the courage to accept them is the key" ~by the personnel in SCH announcing the resutls.

i noe we have done our best and now it is time for us to get over the failure ? ( or would you even consider it as one)

aim high, work hard and score high = that is the cycle of success.
come on ppl, let's get over it and be proud and yet modest to work hard towards our next goal in life. let's do it.


and after 4 years in RGCO blowing the dizi made me realise and taught me a lot of lessons that i would ever learn in my whole life. as the dizi chapter is coming to an end, i would like to share it with you .......

WHEN YOU.......
When you first started your everything, don't be heart broken or crushed by your set-backs coz there are bound to be. Don't think that you are so lan~ coz ppl don't like you, Instead, be brave and modest and most importantly, be yourself, have faith in yourself, coz some time or some days later, ppl will definitely like you, coz trust me, you are perfect (but don't be ego!)

But what else does one need in order to be liked by others? While, listen to me, don't be liked, but rather, be respected. Be firm be strong, be happy be optimistic, be good, and real good, and better than the rest. You don't do it becoz you wan to earn respect, you do it coz u wan to do the best out of it and what's more, you can be really liked through this, so all the more, you should do it.

But this brought us to another topic === and that is how to be good? well, the rule is simple and finite. Quoted frm our conductor Wang Gui Ying lao shi, practise hard and not only hard, but practise with your brain!

okay. so let's assume you have done that for a long time, and you are GOOD and you are liked and respected by others. and you got a certain position.
if you really care about it, you will definitely get stressed over it. you will get stressed over even a simplest thing like "o no. i forgot to bring dimo today. what will others think of me? irresponsible! o no." and you will be damned stressed over it, trust me, damned stress and you will forget to bring your smile but look gloomy and sad.

Well, learn to let go and don’t think too much of what others will think of you. Though it really matters, just learn from your mistakes and take actions to prevent that from happening again. This takes time and sometimes, it takes a lot of time, so be patient and wait for the results.

Sometimes, I felt scared of what will be happening in the future and wanted to get out of the whole thing. Sometimes, I don’t even want to get up and work and do meaningful things that I am supposed to do.
But we all know that doesn’t work, so the only thing we can do is to get up and start working, nothing works better than this.

要玩的时候就尽情的玩
要学习的时候就尽力学

不管什么事情，一定要做到底，做到完， 不可以做到一半就去做其他的。

~

here are some notes of encouragement to friends out there !

to shuaige - u are really amazing ~ trust me. u can balance skl, pb, debate, jap and sas (5 K) is a really very inspiring thing. *shi zhen de - i don't anyhow pai ren jia ma pi de xp* and i feel that u are really yourself, being true to yourself , and doing things that you like, sometimes, you will feel stress along the way, but u can manage one. got a feeling. [but may be wrong lah ] just wanna say JIA YOUJIA YOU
i am looking up to u (haha shuaige feel honoured or not)! (damn cool in debate! zhen de very li hai :) ]

to lingyan - my dizi junior. i used to really care a lot of what others think of me and still now : ) and worry about stuff that is in front of me, (tian ah, i still do now!), but don't let those occupy your heart or become ur main concern, coz you won't be happy.
i noe what happened and i really don't noe how to help, except to say the theoretical part, so let's enjoy ourselves on sat! for our chuiguan k box! sing our hearts out!

to zhang ah chuan - dear mr zhang, hahah kidding only, beside shuaige, i must say i respect you also. though sometimes you are 'feng feng dian dian' [haha exaggeration only xp ] but you really put in your best effort into doing sth when you are serious and that really let me pei fu ni !


have fun when you are having fun
be serious when you are being serious.

do the best out of everything, no matter it is play or work.
that is one thing i need to learn out of you babe (alamak, influence by shuaige liao!)

so jia you SHUAIGE AND AH CHUAN FOR YOUR DEBATE NEXT WED! GOING TO SUPPORT YOU GUYS TOO !

jia you!

okay that is all.

1 pic - chuiguan grp photo