loads

today is the final day and the most important day of our sec 4 career as a co member. syf! yeah babes.
and after days of hard work and days and days of practices, we finally went inside the theatre and sat there, and played just 2 songs! which is about 12mins.
and for that mere 12 mins, we hav prac. at least 50 hours (or even more!)
and for that mere 12 mins, we must do our best and not to be nervous and show what we really can do ! and that is torturous.

i got nervous! really got nervous and could feel my whole body shaking (*eeeee though i tried to manage it!) and when i picked up my dizi and blowed the solo part !the 1st note is disappointing and i felt so horrible after that.
others told me that it is not my usual standard but still quite nice, and some said i played the best solo of all for the whole day (thxs loads and many kisses to you all : ) ]
then somehow i cried after that coz i felt all the hard work i put in did not end up in me playing at my best!and i tot i screwed the whole song up.
(but luckily everybody said i did okay~ thxs dudes }

lingyan was telling me about if you get 10 points while you are practising, you can only get 7 on the stage coz there are sure to be errors!

after we got our results, which is GOLD (with no honours), most of us are feeling disappointed and depressed over it == why didn't we get honours??

while, i am disappointed too but .... look at the other neighbourhood schools who cheered and cried with joy over getting a gold and yet look at us who mourn over the same gold makes me feel bad~... it is really hard to describe that.

aim high is good as you are ambitious and want to acheive more and thus will put in your best effort to work towards the goal.

"success and failure are not the key things in life. but the courage to accept them is the key" ~by the personnel in SCH announcing the resutls.

i noe we have done our best and now it is time for us to get over the failure ? ( or would you even consider it as one)

aim high, work hard and score high = that is the cycle of success.
come on ppl, let's get over it and be proud and yet modest to work hard towards our next goal in life. let's do it.


and after 4 years in RGCO blowing the dizi made me realise and taught me a lot of lessons that i would ever learn in my whole life. as the dizi chapter is coming to an end, i would like to share it with you .......

WHEN YOU.......
When you first started your everything, don't be heart broken or crushed by your set-backs coz there are bound to be. Don't think that you are so lan~ coz ppl don't like you, Instead, be brave and modest and most importantly, be yourself, have faith in yourself, coz some time or some days later, ppl will definitely like you, coz trust me, you are perfect (but don't be ego!)

But what else does one need in order to be liked by others? While, listen to me, don't be liked, but rather, be respected. Be firm be strong, be happy be optimistic, be good, and real good, and better than the rest. You don't do it becoz you wan to earn respect, you do it coz u wan to do the best out of it and what's more, you can be really liked through this, so all the more, you should do it.

But this brought us to another topic === and that is how to be good? well, the rule is simple and finite. Quoted frm our conductor Wang Gui Ying lao shi, practise hard and not only hard, but practise with your brain!

okay. so let's assume you have done that for a long time, and you are GOOD and you are liked and respected by others. and you got a certain position.
if you really care about it, you will definitely get stressed over it. you will get stressed over even a simplest thing like "o no. i forgot to bring dimo today. what will others think of me? irresponsible! o no." and you will be damned stressed over it, trust me, damned stress and you will forget to bring your smile but look gloomy and sad.

Well, learn to let go and don’t think too much of what others will think of you. Though it really matters, just learn from your mistakes and take actions to prevent that from happening again. This takes time and sometimes, it takes a lot of time, so be patient and wait for the results.

Sometimes, I felt scared of what will be happening in the future and wanted to get out of the whole thing. Sometimes, I don’t even want to get up and work and do meaningful things that I am supposed to do.
But we all know that doesn’t work, so the only thing we can do is to get up and start working, nothing works better than this.

要玩的时候就尽情的玩
要学习的时候就尽力学

不管什么事情，一定要做到底，做到完， 不可以做到一半就去做其他的。